I have given birth on the 14th March 2010 to a lovely baby girl Phoebe!
Her Christian name is Phoebe Soh and her Chinese name is 苏恩琦.

Why Phoebe?
1) Phoebe means bright and shining (hope she'll have a bright and shining personality and also shine for God!). 2) In the bible Rom 16: 1-2, Phoebe was a faithful and serving Christian woman who helped alot of ppl.  
3) My frd, Phoebe Liaw, is a very good life example for the first two points! ;) Hope baby Phoebe will grow up to be like her, so cheerfully loving God and serving God.

Why 恩琦?
恩-grace
琦-precious, amazing
恩琦 - Amazing grace
Thank God for His grace upon my life and for giving me such a lovely baby girl! =)

Here's some photos i took while i'm pregnant... missed my long hair, cut my hair since this Jan.
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Here's my delivery and baby's photos.
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Realised that I have typed out this post last dec but didn't get to post it...

Dec 2009

Time flies and I'm now 6 months pregnant! My scan a month ago confirms that it's a baby gal. =) Thank God for this precious life! =D

It's finally holiday for me today onwards. Had been real busy during school term. Haven't buy anything or prepare anything yet for the arrival of my baby. Will make use of this christmas season with all the long-awaited sales to do my shooping.

Am I prepared to be a mum? Hee... A question that many ppl asked me. Hmm... I have always wanted to! Even though I think I got a lot to learn in order to be a good mum. I dun even know how to carry a baby till now. Haha, pray that by God's grace, I will be a good mother. Hee.
My hubby and I have been praying every night for our baby and our family. May God watches over us and lead us in the future ahead.

As for the name... stressed.. haven't think of the name for my baby yet... Will be praying for God to help me in this... A name is very very impt!
In the bible, every name that God names has its meaning and purpose.. Need to choose this carefully. =) This precious life is not mine, but God.

Haven't take much photos... Here's some photos taken during my birthday celebration with my church friends a month ago. My big tummy's not very obvious as I'm wearing loose clothes.

I had attended a Life Management workshop organised by my church and gained alot of insight through it. Here's some of my reflections for the first lesson. Am slowly reviewing through the lessons to get the most of it. =)

I have drawn out my own personal life purpose! =) Over the years, God has been moulding and teaching me alot in the area of love.

My Personal Life Statement:
To love God with all my heart (devotions), soul( workship and enjoy Him), mind (wisdom and disciplined thought life) and strength (everything I do). To love people with God's love.

Also learnt about the Franklin Reality Model which can be used to aid permanent behaviour change. Here's more about it.

Needs
Research has shown that apart from our physical needs for air, water, food and shelter, we have four psychological needs.
The need to live - we will do all we can to stay alive.
The need to love and be loved - we will go great lengths to win love.
The need to feel important - we will resort to several means to attract attention.
The need to experience variety - we will enjoy a variety of things and pursue new experiences.

When these needs are met, we are happy.
However, all four needs are seldom completely satisfied at any given time. When a basic need demands attention, we will channel all our available energy and attention into the need that is deprived.
Eg. If the need for "to love and be loved" is not met...

The Beliefs window
Our four basic needs drive and and urge us. It will that be directed through our values and beliefs system.
Eg. If we have a belief that "A boyfriend will be able to meet this need of mine."

Rules
For each belief, we will subconsciously create rules ("if-then")  that govern our behaviour.
Eg. If a boyfriend will be able to meet this need, then I need to find a boyfriend to experience love.

Behaviour Patterns
We will behave in the ways according to our "secret rules".
Eg. We will find ways to find a boyfriend.

Results and feedback
If the results of our behaviour meet our needs, this feedbacks to ourselves that the belief is harmless or even "correct". If it is not met, it will suggest that we take a closer look at the needs and the beliefs.
Eg. If having a boyfriend doesn't satisfy this need, then we will starting wondering why.

This Reality Model is used to reaffirm that our behaviours are mainly due to our beliefs. And in order to correct a behaviour, the unmet needs and the wrong beliefs need to be identified. It is good that we observe our behaviours and identify our deeper values and needs.

God, our Creator, has an important say on our values and beliefs. His Word states clearly tt His ways are higher than ours and so are His thoughts. And He reveals them to us through His Word.
Until we acknowledge that His values and understandings are higher that our values and beliefs(that we gain through our experiences) or worldly philosophies (that others gain thr their experiences), then He will be able to meet our needs in the right way. 
 
We can identify our needs and God's governing values based on the Word of God and with the right values, we will be able to experience inner peace and allow God to meet our needs.

Here's my personal reflections and my desired values and behaviour:

My needs	Biblical Values	Rules	Desired Behaviour
To love and be loved	God is my source of love	I need to experience God's love, then I will be able to love others more.	Prioritise my r/s with God above all the demands of life and people.
To live	My life is a gift from God	If it's a gift, then I must treasure and take good care of it. Be a good steward of my time and resources.	Take care of my health. Exercise good time management and plan and be more disciplined!
To feel important	My worth is founded in God. I'm important to God because of who I am, not what I do.	If I'm worthy to God, I should not have self-condeming thoughts or try to do things to seek people's approval. I should also focus on the being, not doing.	Love and appreciate myself. Acknowledge my faults and weaknesses. Repent of my sins and understand that it doesn't make me less worthy/ important to God. Seek to grow and improve myself becos God loves me and I'm important to Him.
To experience variety	Life in God is not boring. God is a creative God and we can be creative and adventureous too.	I can enjoy the varieties of life as long as it is within boundaries and it doesn't  become an obsession or cause imbalance in my life.	Be open to explore new things, learn new skills, enjoy healthy entertainment, appreciate God's creations, different cultures etc.

Happy Chinese New Year! 
Some of my former school students came to my place for visitations last sat. Oh it has been long since I last seen them. They are my CCA students whom had been dear to me. It warms my heart seeing how they grow up, mature and become more capable. I still recall the farewell party they had for me last dec. They made a banner and Powerpoint for me and give me presents and flowers! SOOooo sweet! Esp the banner, it's so nice!


Had a gathering also at Shernice's place for CNY two saturdays ago too. Am so glad to see my former colleagues and we really had a great time togther. Missing them... Wanna thank all my colleauges and students in HY for giving me such sweet memories for the past 4 yrs. Will be meeting some of the colleagues again for Sally's baby's shower. Cant wait to see them again! =)

Thank God also for my current colleagues and students. Had been adapting well and getting along well too! May God continue to equip and use me where I am! =)

I think I have to do some justice to my blog. Holiday now and I'm already married but the blog is still backdated. So, latest update: I am now Mrs Soh! HAHA

Thank God for the wedding. Everything went smoothly and thank God for providing for us! Am very touched by the many helpers whom touched my heart deeply with their help. My caregroup came to my house to help me clean up and repaint my house. It was a tough job and we took 2 days to do that. Even my parents are touched when they delicately and carefully do the cleaning and washing. Many of them had not done so much before, it's tiring but they did not give up. (Recently there's a tv show in channel 8/U about the life transformers who went to help the needy to transform their houses. The sight of them washing and cleaning resembles what my caregroup did!) Thanks also to the singers, musicians, media team, receptionists, ushers, video and cameraman, emcees, etc etc! U guys are great!!! Many ppl find the wedding proposal clip and animation testimonies sweet and touching too!





Million thanks to our family members who supported and helped us one way or another. Our parents and siblings are really very happy for us! (Finally i'm off the shelf.. haha.. i remember tt my dad used to worry tt i'll be left on the shelf, then i always joke tt i have ppl queuing from boon lay to changi.. haha, finally i have chosen Toa Payoh) =P
Starting to miss my family. Even though now i go back home once a week, but everytime i'm back home, i really wish to stay longer.
My in-laws are very nice ppl. Lovely couple who have very good temper and manage the family well. Thank God for this new family who welcome and take care of me.

Went for induction on Mon at my new school. Felt like a new teacher having to start all over again. Everything is very new to me. Pray tt I can adapt well and pray tt God will reveal to me His plans for me in my new school. Missed my former school though. If not for the distance, took me 2 hrs one-way trip, i would have stayed. Anyway, life's full of changes, tt is part and parcel of life bah. Just need to learn to adapt and look ahead. =D

Going for my honeymoon next wed at hOkaiddo! Can't wait to see snow for the first time in my life! Pray tt I will have a great trip!=D

Lastly, wanna end off with some recent thanksgivings to God for His love and faithfulness. Wanna thank God for the many times He stopped the rain after I prayed. My frds (who are not believers yet) were amazed when they witnessed it. (Thank God tt they can get to witness it) Anyway, as a Christian, that's what we are used to. ;) God is the Creator, of cos stopping the rain is nothing to Him. Also, thank God for answering my prayers as He healed my frd PW of her stomach cramps, Sam of her injured hand and Pete for his leg pain. Also, thank God for helping my frd KS to find back his wallet after losing it for a few days. It's amazing God answered exactly the way I prayed, I prayed for someone to pick up the wallet and return it to KS after he told me he just lost it. And 4 days later, he found it in his MAILBOX! The person mailed it back to him! The principal is: if u wanna experience God's power, PRAY!
Jesus said: "And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father (God) may be glorified in the Son." John 14:13

Here's a nice video i came across.. it reminds me of God's love for us and the pain He went thr for us...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C0r_FbARIn8
 

It's one and a half month more to my BIG day. Starting to feel stressed liao. |||
So many things not done yet =P Had so much work to juggle at the same time, 2nd semester is busiest for most teachers...
My photos are very very nice. hee.. here's a glimpse of some of the photos.







NIce rite? I like the makeup and hairdo esp. But pity that i cant have that makeup artist for my actual day. Many ppl say we look quite different. haha Esp for him cos he seldom wear contact lens.

This Saturday, I'm going to do house-cleaning for my house and paint my room. Thank God for my caregroup who offered to help me! Thanks so much!! Felt so loved.. hee

Abit nervous as the day is approaching... got lots of adjustment into marriage life. Challenging but yet looking forward. May God stays close and continue to lead us as we take each step by faith. =)

Oh no!!! Cant believe it tat it has been half a yr that i last blogged! =P
Busy? Hmm.. not sure when will i be not busy. hahahhahaha Think mainly cos I dun really have it a habit yet to keep updating blog. But i do wanna maintain it wor.

There are many happenings to update man.
First of all, job wise, i have been taking up more and more things this yr. Challenging but glad that God has been equipping and helping me thr them. Pray that I will continue to trust Him more and allow Him to stretch and grow me, esp in aspect of planning and managing.

I also just had me wedding photo shoots! Cool! It had been a real enjoyable time as I am being dolled up with 8 different styles. Wah felt like princess! The costumes are very nice (except for the outdoor shoot which i dun have much choice). And the makeup artist is very good at make up and doing the hair. She's so creative with my hairstyle! Haven't see the photos yet but hope they are nice! Surely, God will bless me with nice photos! hee.

Now, more challenging things to come, that is to furnish and do up my house and my fiance's room (my future room). Thanks my dear joel for blessing us with a bedsheet set and comforter as our wedding gift. She's my very experienced wedding coordinator and she has been more urgent than me haha! Preparation for the wedding has to start now.. 5 months left!
Had went around looking at furniture and going to paint my house.
May God helps me to manage my time well managing so many things. Also, help me financially as we are quite stretched in this area. May our wedding be blessed and may it also bless everyone who are attending the wedding. =) Of cos, may my marriage be a blissful one, this is most impt!

Jus came back from Msia last week after my church camp from the 5th to 8th June. It was a real enjoyable time! Had a great time with my caregroup, we opened up more and commit to God to be more serious with our walk and be more committed to love and build one another up. Also, God has blessed the camp with His presence, speaking to many of us personally and perform healings and displaying of spiritual gifts and prophecies during the camp. Also, one testimony that touches me alot is that one of our church sister shared Christ and bring a 50+ massage lady to receive Christ during a break time while she went for massage. The lady is so glad and broke down with tears of joy after she received Christ.
It reminds me of this verse in the bible, "Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect, keeping a clear conscience." 1Pete 3:15
This is the verse that God speaks to me 8+ years ago just before my bro and sister received Christ. It warms my heart as I think about God's love for all mankind and His desire to bring all to know Him and experience His love, and He has chosen to use us to testify His love. The sister had encouraged me to really be sensitive to the Holy Spirit and allow God to use me to share more about His love. She did not jus enjoy the physical pleasure of being massage, but she also remembered God's love and experienced the joy of bringing someone to know God.

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Overwhelming with joy now as i think about these 2 weeks...

I acted in church on Sat and Sun. Here's some pics! It had been me and my sis dream to be able to dress in Chinese 'wu3 sia2 pian4' costumes.

My sis and I

The drama crew

I thank God to be able to perform tog with my beautiful sis in a public performance for the first time. Thank God for the ppl who came to support me, Wendy, Yingyan, HQ's bro and his gf!
More gratefully and unexpectedly, Wendy received Christ after she heard the pastor's sharing! She shared that initially she had alot of qns for God and all of them were mentioned and answered during the svc with amazing pinpoint accuracy. These 2 days she also had been praying to God and received alot of answered prayers. God is so faithful and loving! =D
She also prayed for opportunity to share with her dad abt her conversion testimony on Monday. God gave her the opportunity and her dad and sis even agree to come to church with her this Sunday!!! I'm very amazed and encouraged by her simple faith and courage to trust God. What mustard seed faith she has that moves the mountain! =D

Also, I went to stay over with Liping and my godson and goddaughter last week. Rene's 1yr and 5 months old now! Grow so fast. Now can walk on her own and run ard in the house. =D

Ryan and Rene

I had a good time catching up with Liping. Enjoyed the time alot! =D
Also, got the chance to share with Liping and Ryan about some of the healing miracles God has done this yr for ppl ard me. Hope they can also experience God's goodness in some ways. =)

Met up with Yujing today aft we lost contact for many years. Bumped into her mum thus managed to get her hp. Both of us had changed no over the years. Had a good time of catching up and updating each other of our lives. Am very glad to be able to meet her up again. =)

Today, I'm convinced tt Joel really knows me like the worm in my stomach. Haha... This is not the first time but one of the many times when she can detect my mood without me giving her any hint. Haha... somehow God has given her a special detector to detect my mood. Lol Thank God for this special friend of mine. =D

Another frd of mine had been thr a tough time in her family recently and experienced much of God's love and faithfulness. Am very touched and priviledged to be able to be there for her and hear how she had experienced God's love. Also, God has blessed her with good results for her course! Thank God! Thank God for our frdship too! =)

Lastly, I thank God for sending His One and Only Son, Jesus, on earth on Christmas day and walked on the earth 33 years to share with us about His truth and His love. Then He died on the cross so as to reconcile us to God. 3 days later, He resurrected and raised to heaven to let us know that He is God and had overcome death thus we can be overcomers!

Those who confess with our mouth and believe in our hearts that Jesus is Lord will be saved.(Romans 10:9) Saved from sin and be reconciled to God as His children, having a personal and intimate relationship with Him who love us and created us with our unique life purposes.

A nice movie clip that depicts the love of God for us as He gives His Son Jesus to give us eternal life, such that sinful man like us can enjoy a relationship with a holy God.

Jesus's sufferings, death on the cross and resurrection has the power to give us new life, hope, strength and purpose for our living.

http://www.godtube.com/view_video?viewkey=13a4a045cd290bc2ae2d

Recently there are alot of scams. Please be alert and careful when u receive calls. Never ever release ur mastercard/credit card no, ur ATM password or transfer any money to anyone.
Do read abt the articles below:
Phone Scams Impersonating Supreme Court Staff And Police Officers
http://talkback.stomp.com.sg/forums/showthread.php?t=26989
http://www.spf.gov.sg/mic/2007/071018_supcourtphonescam.htm
lottery scam
http://news.asiaone.com/News/The+Straits+Times/Story/A1Story20071111-35661.html
http://www.garieinternational.com.sg/lottery.htm

"The purposes of a man's heart are deep waters, but a man of understanding draws them out." Pro 20:5

I pray and seek for more wisdom to understand and discern the purposes of man.

"For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword. It penerates even in dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. Nothing in all creation is hidden from God's sight." Heb 4:12